A Mother

Almost exactly 18 months ago a mother was born. As Ruby said, "Hello" to the world for the first time I became something new & different. Without any warning I was given a mother's heart, a mother's mind that never stops going (or worrying), a mother's responsibility & a mother's guilt. Ruby's very presence in this world did that for me. As I've watched her learn & grow over the past 18 months my belief in God has been strengthened & my understanding of His love for me has increased. When I look at that child of mine I see divinity. I know too well that anything that good & perfect has to come from God. And I'm reminded of it on such a regular basis as I'm filled with incomprehensible love & adoration for Ruby. I feel like I was always meant to be a mother & sometimes I think it's ironic that I had to wait so long to become one. But then I remember that this is exactly how my life was supposed to go. And I really feel that God gave me a precious gift by making me wait. And as I remember this I also remember to thank Him. Again & again & again.

And now as I try my best to suppress my baby hunger for another, I remember that I wouldn't have a taste for the sweet if I had never tasted the bitter. And so I'll try my best to start each day with a heart filled with gratitude for what I do have now, & know that the best is yet to be.



Happy Valentine's Day!

 

 

 

Hope your day is filled with lots of love.



Things I Don't Want to Forget

My friend gave me a journal to keep for Ruby when she was just a few months old & suggested I write down things about Ruby that I don't want to forget. As I've looked back on that journal I'm so grateful to have it because there are so many little things I've forgotten. So much happens so quickly & even though I always think I'll remember, I don't. So here are a few more things that Ruby has been doing lately...

Skateboarding for the first time with Dad.

 

Anything that she can fit on her wrist is a "bracelet". Hair elastics, rubberbands, toy rings, you name it.

She still puts everything in her mouth. It defnitely keeps me on my toes.

She's obsessed with stuffed animals, takes them everywhere & gives them lots of hugs & kisses.

And she's learning to play soccer! Well, really just kick the ball but it's pretty much the cutest thing ever.



We Love Arizona

Over the past month we've had some weather here in Arizona. Highs in the 40's and rain for days in a row with overcast skies. It's so uncharacteristic for where we live & after a while I was sick & tired of it. I know other places are way, way colder right now, but I've come to the realization that I need warm weather & sunshine because when we can't play outside we kind of don't know what to do with ourselves around here. But today the weather was perfect so we hopped on our bikes & headed to the park. Ruby is in love with slides these days & always says, "Whoa!" once she gets to the bottom. Days like these are my favorite.