I've been going back and forth with whether I want to get started on our nursery. I want it to be ready when our baby comes, but seeing as we don't know when that will be, I've been hesitant to buy anything or get set up. Will our hearts ache every time we walk past the room that's missing a baby? Will it only make our longing for children even deeper? Maybe that door will stay shut a little more often, but all in all I think it will be worth it to be ready. My mom gave me her rocking chair when we were first trying to get pregnant, and last year Tyler surprised me at Christmas by having it refinished and fixed up. It was totally unexpected and so thoughtful. He kept it at my parents' house so I wouldn't find it, and when we were over there opening presents with my family he brought it out. I cried.
This is the same rocking chair my mom rocked each of her babies in. I love things that are passed down that have meaning. The wood was originally a different color and the seat was broken so Tyler had it all redone. He was so worried that it wouldn't be just like I wanted, but it was perfect. By far one of the best gifts I've ever been given. We've had this chair for several years now, and when my mom first gave it to me I thought I would be rocking my own babies in it in no time at all. But I suppose life often has a way of surprising us. Every now and then I'll sit in it and think about my babies. I wish they'd stop taking so long to get here, but Tyler & I know that wanting something so badly will make it all the more precious when it does come.
Me sitting in my new rocking chair at Christmas.
So I'm just going to do it. I'll start by painting and then next we'll buy a crib. And if I have to shut the door every now and then, that's okay. There will be a day when that door will be open, and I can't wait.
